what is the statute of limitations on crying? there are so many societal "norms" and taboos having to do with crying or not crying, but when it comes down to it, how much emotion and distress is okay to display? i've always been one to try *not* to cry, but that's mostly because i hate the idea of being vulnerable. to me, crying is an outpouring of vulnerability, through which your sense of reality and comfort may be distorted. not to say crying is bad, because sometimes you just need to cry. but there should be some statute of limitations about how much it's okay to cry or who it's okay to cry around. if someone is crying while talking to me, i feel bad and want to make them feel better... but what happens when i'm the reason someone is crying? how much of that do i need to sit and listen to? how much of that can i comfort away, especially in situations where i just want to get out?

i'm too damn nice to just slam the door. i wish i could, but i always end up leaving things open-ended. i want things to work out as painlessly as possible, and more often than not that's not realistic. i try to make it that way, but end up dragging things out more than i should... and then i end up bringing myself down as well. ahh, the trials and tribulations of emotional life. how much easier it would be if i wasn't human, and i didn't have to worry about human emotions. they get so in the way sometimes.

in other news, GO RAIDERS!! i'm a 49ers fan, as you know, but the other bay area team also deserves my respect and fandom. while i was hoping for an eagles-raiders super bowl (because the eagles are my second-favorite NFC team), i think it'll be an awesome showdown between the buccaneers and the raiders. what a testament for jon gruden's coaching capabilities though-- the team he built up on the west coast facing the team he's now helming. now why couldn't we get him to coach the 9ers?!

the roomie and i spent most of yesterday shopping, too. TL was looking to accessorize his new expensive bed, and i'd had an urge to spend money (which i don't have, of course) even though i didn't have anything specific that i wanted to buy. so instead, i bought a lot of unspecific stuff! i finally replaced my old dead mixer, so now i can make cookies without breaking my wrists. i also bought some cool red aldo-ish shoes, and i'm wearing them today. yay red shoes! unnecessary purchase, but i'm sure i'll enjoy them. i bought some cute lion socks, which i'm also wearing. i'm on a funky-sock-buying kick, i think. i bought bat ray socks a few weeks ago at the monterey bay aquarium, too. white socks are just too boring.

i almost forgot! mad props to my roomie for putting his pride on the line last night. unfortunately he did not prevail, but at least he put forth a good effort. :)