it's interesting to me how my love life always likes to stay complicated. i haven't had the best track record with choosing relationship partners, and as each one becomes part of my past instead of my present i get dulled to the idea of something ideal working out. i've always said that i wanted the person i end up with to be my best friend... because when all is said and done, you want someone with whom you'll be comfortable, who you can talk to, who makes you laugh, and so forth. physical attractions are great, but they can't be the driving force behind a relationship. people get old, parts begin to sag, the physical thing isn't always going to be there. that's why the other stuff needs to be.

so when something that seems to fit some of the major requirements may work out, what do i do? why am i so scared of that happening?