i despise having my integrity thrown into question. my integrity is one thing that i hold in very high standard for myself, and to have my integrity be attacked with no opportunity for self-defense is infuriating. office politics have yet again circumvented me, and i have been unnecessarily attacked for untruthful and misconceived statements. gotta love office gossip, huh? it makes me yet again feel the need to redouble my efforts to find a better job. i also am going to make a considerable effort not to socialize as much with my coworkers. i'm not here to make friends... especially if i'm hoping to leave soon, i just need to maintain civility and then i can forget about them for the rest of my life. except liz, who i like. okay, well, a few of them i'll keep in touch with, but the rest of them? eh.

it also really bothers me that it was so confrontational. the episode in question was something that happened some time ago, and instead of talking to me directly about the issue then, she stewed and gossiped and treated me with disdain. when she finally did feel the need to confront me, she was certain of her side of the story and would not deign to hear mine. considering that my side of the story is what really happened, that's a grave mistake on her part. oh well, i guess i know better what kind of person she is.