ever feel like you're talking just to fill the silence? i'm a talker, i guess, mostly because i want people to feel comfortable and included and have fun and all that good stuff. i tend to try to get people to get involved, and i try to draw people out so they're part of a conversation or part of an activity. it's just me, who i am, whatever. but i spent the better part of an hour on the phone last night, and it felt like i was just talking to fill the spaces. and this is with someone who should be able to fill those spaces back. i'm tired of being the only one talking, both because i feel like my ramblings are in-one-ear-out-the-other and because a conversation should be, well, a conversation. that means two or more people, talking among themselves. a conversation is not a monologue. i hate monologuing, because i hate feeling like it's all about me.

besides, there are times when i can talk and talk and never really say a thing... but would you notice? everyone has something to say, everyone has something real, something significant, a poem or a story or a monologue or a diatribe in them. you just have to be listening...

someone broke into my brother's car yesterday. they couldn't get the stereo out, so they just trashed it instead, and took everything else inside the car that had any value. bastards. i'll never understand why people feel the need to be destructive and malicious. i mean, my brother is fighting the system right now along with the best of them, and can't afford to deal with this sort of crap right now. no one ever wants to deal with it, but especially not when you can't afford it. i think i'll have to help replenish his cd collection. donations, anyone? :)