we laugh and laugh because otherwise we'd want to cry....

i'm having a difficult time with not knowing where my feelings should be. i've always been reluctant to open up because i don't want to put myself in a vulnerable position... but now i find myself in an in-between spot that doesn't leave me with much control over my own feelings or where i can go with them. i'm waiting for something to happen. i'm not sure what will happen, or if it'll even be something i can invest in, but at this point i can't do anything. i'm floundering because i have no idea what i'm supposed to do or feel....

had a good weekend, though. coldplay concert at shoreline with karena and gang, earthquakes game and bbq on saturday (ugh, crappy game), and hanging out with teddie and his new roomie erica on sunday. not a bad weekend. i also got my raise today, but it's minimal. evidently i'm the second-highest paid person in my position... which really sucks for the people who make less than me, since i don't make much at all. *sigh* time for a new job. time for a new life...