blah. i've been so lazy lately. i get through a lot of what i'm supposed to do, but there's not a whole lot of passion or motivation behind it. that's one of the biggest reasons i want a new job, because i need that something new to motivate me to work hard. as it is, i'm at peak knowledge with the foundation, so i don't feel much motivation to go above and beyond. there are some projects that i'm passionate about, but for the most part i'm jaded by the processes and am just doing the daily drudgery of my job instead of enjoying parts of it. i just got a 5% raise here, too, which is nice but it's still not much in the way of standard of living for the bay area. the problem is that my dissatisfaction isn't even really about the money anymore. i just need new challenges... maybe i need to refocus on writing and see where that takes me. i've got a few ideas brewing that i need to put to paper.

the saving grace, of course, is that i'm finally happy in my home life. it's been a while since i could truly say that. i'm in a good relationship, i'm spending time with people i enjoy, i'm doing things i love doing... the home itself could stand some improvement, but i'm working on that. but hey, i even have a little christmas tree and the use of a spiffy self-vacuuming vacuum cleaner!

how many goldfish crackers fit in a 6.5" by 3.75" round jar?